Day Fifty-Seven, Lewis Watson on Monday Night

I am starting this earlier than usual as I am headed out to see Lewis Watson (not artist x) with Prima and PMM this evening and I will probably be home late and be soooo tired. I am hopping I can add to this, but just in case I'm wiped out, I will at least have checked in.

So accountability you say? Or did I say that, right it was me. There was NO accountability today or rather I should say no actions with thoughts towards accountability. I got out my notebook to make a list, I wrote : Dog food, Dog treats (which I needed to buy but don't worry, the doggies won't go hungry I have food left, just no crate treats). Then I sat down and transcribed some things I had written in the List Notebook and then a friend called who I haven't seen in a really long time and all my plans flew out the window as I went to see her instead of tackling the imposing list I had created. Tomorrow will be just as bad, since my dad and BC are coming for breakfast and then I am meeting up with TD to have our toes tended to.

A thought struck me (not very hard, it didn't hurt at all!) as I was looking at the clean spot in my kitchen and appreciating it. I think I am really good at cleaning but in little bits. I lose interest after one or two spots are cleaned well and move onto other things like checking email and Important Things like that. So maybe a strategy is to work with that instead go trying to accomplish everything all at once and then I won't feel like a failure because I haven't built a mansion on top of my tiny house and also cured cancer and created world peace all on the same day. Maybe I need to look with careful eyes at who I am and let that be. To embrace what I have to offer and let it work for me rather that struggling with the hopelessness of what I am not and being dragged down by that. When I have cleaned a bit of my house and I feel happy about it, I have no trouble keeping it clean. It's when I feel as if my efforts don't make a difference and then I throw my hands up and walk away from ALL maintenance. It's the same with the garden, with the cottage, with my crafts, I need to work with who I am not who I think I should be. and with that, I am off to the city for a date with my girl and her friend. Earplugs!

As I thought it is so late, I am going to bed, goodnight!

Lewis Watson!