Day Sixty-Nine, Another Saturday Night And I Ain't Got Nobody ( That's Not True, I Really Do!)

We celebrated Primo's birthday today, with the first birthday 'party' he's had in nearly four years. Sadly I can't actually remember how many years it has been since he has had a birthday party. Having a birthday near Thanksgiving has proven to make planning birthday parties rather difficult as most people are out of town either the weekend before or after his birthday. One year, we had his party in March, because I couldn't throw one for Prima if I hadn't thrown one for Primo, and hers was quickly approaching.

It was a very low key affair, TR and I took Primo, SP and RS to The City to explore Japan Center on their own (we kept an eye from a distance). We had lunch and birthday crepes and each boy was given a sum to spend as he wished, they all chose to purchase wicked looking knives ( I did call RS and SP's parents to get permission) and were pleased as punch with their acquisitions. When we returned home, they stayed for a pizza dinner and then they watched a movie with Prima and FM. Primo proclaimed it the best birthday party he has ever had, and I am so glad that he wast so pleased with it, it was definitely time for him to be celebrated!

I find myself back in the same place as ever, a million ideas spinning around in my head and the abysmal feeling that there isn't time or money enough to get everything done. It seems to send me into panic mode and I become even more still, which makes me accomplish less and the spiral grows on itself. I haven't made a daily task list for some time. Monday will be the day to start again, it did seem to push me forward, while making it I will try to remember all the things I have noticed about myself and getting reaching my goals. Maybe I'll even go so far as to read through the blog and take some notes to help me be as successful as I can be. It seems that as I came to the end of the official time off, I stopped thinking about what I wanted to get done each day. Time to get back on track. Monday morning, two goals will be ( besides wishing my boy Many Happy Returns of the Day) 1. Get running shoes and start the C25K thing I have been avoiding, and 2. Look up the mediation course I want to take and sign up.

TR is tuckered out so it's lights out for me too! Goodnight : )

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