Day Eighty-Five, Runaway Monday Turns Into Monday Night

I had such plans for today, but you know what they say about the best laid plans, well that's what happened to my day. I started the derailing by dropping Primo off at the regular carpool point with out double checking that the carpool was on. It wasn't. I had to drop off TR and Prima, zip back to grab Primo and rush him down to school. I think he was only a few minutes late, whew! I was heading home to attack my list and received a text from CW asking if I was free to help with her current project. I agreed to go help, ran home for a bit to clean out the fridge (number 1 on the day's list, there was some OLD sashimi in there, yech, stinky!), brush my teeth and I headed over to help out CW. I ended up there until it was time to pick up the High School crew, and that was the day changed. After I got Prima and company, I dropped all those kiddos off and Prima and I went grocery shopping and then went to lunch together, where Primo met us after his carpool dropped him off. After gobbling up some jalapeño pepper poppers, he scampered off to meet a friend. The rest of the day flowed along and now I am here, all fed and cuddled into my cozy little house watching Twin Peaks with the fam.

Once again I had so many thoughtful thoughts during the day and now that I sit here in a time of reflection, all those thoughts have skittered away like leaves before a playful breeze. Dancing, elusively, just a little out of reach. Where can they be? They seemed so Meaningful and Important while I was playing with them earlier, but now I can't see them clearly and it makes me wonder if perhaps those thoughts weren't Fleeting and Childish after all. I don't know. I do know that my energy on this journey has changed, I am still the same person, my moods still swing back and forth, discontent still nips at my heels, I am still over critical and lazy, but I am content and happy in a different way than before. I feel that the underlying current is one of happiness and enthusiasm with, and, for life. I think that working so hard for the last few years and watching my life really, really drift by, has made me more aware and conscious of time and how much I am enjoying just being in it.

I feel like this blog should be so much longer each day than it has been each day, but somehow it is sometimes short and sometimes long. Lately I have been able to say everything I need to say fairly concisely so this will be goodnight. Goodnight!

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