Day Twenty-Seven, S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y Night!

I have meticulously planned out clean ups for the house, for the cottage, for the basement. I have made detailed lists, bought boxes and bags to pack up STUFF that I'm not sure what to do with, I have pulled up carpet, moved boxes from one place to another. I have bought construction and DEstruction supplies. I have bought, planned anguished, hoped, cried, discussed, started, but never finished any of these projects I want to execute. These things sit on me, haunt me, oppress me until I feel I cannot move at all. I am paralyzed by the sheer volume of projects that stand before me begging to be undertaken to completion. And here I sit, phone or iPod in hand attention buried in the screen, avoiding the reality of the situation.

I started this much earlier today and it is a good thing I did, because it is almost S-U-N-D-A-Y morning! It has been a beautiful day, again so many activities it seems like several days have been squished into one. We went to a "driveway sale" that RQ invited us to. I took Prima to the barn for her lesson, she fell off the horse today. Poor girl, it was a quick event, but she replayed it in her head, questioning her skill and ability. She did get right back on though, which is good. She will be sore tomorrow, and she's off to the Boardwalk, with PMM, so that might be a bit challenging. TR worked on the coolest novelty thunder maker to use with his banjo bass. He bought an amp at the yard sale, and when we got home he and the kids took turns playing guitar. I must say that I love the music that is in our house. It may not be as trained as other families, but it is full of enjoyment and satisfaction, and isn't that what it is really about? I went to an Arbonne party at PS's house, it was really for teenage girls, but Prima had an engagement tonight with PMM so I went for a bit in her stead. It was fun, the girls were so full of giggles and interest. I got to visit with PS which I haven't done in ever so, EVER so long. We used to hang out quite a bit. I am glad we reconnected.

Now TR is finishing up a double feature movie night we are/were enjoying with Primo. A double bill with "Shanghai Noon" and Shanghai Knights". It is so fun to watch Primo enjoying a movie. He gets so giggly, and you can see the excitement build in his entire body. He squirms and laughs and squeals with delight at the funny bits. He would probably hate that description, but I think it describes him. I do love to watch his complete enjoyment of life. If I hadn't had to come up to write this, I would have fallen asleep, I am exhausted. So I will make a couple of observations and then nighty-night.

First, I want to acknowledge that even though I spend a lot of time lamenting over what I don't have or haven't done, I know I have been incredibly fortunate in life. My man is the most amazing person I have known. Creative, tender, thoughtful, dashingly handsome, sweet, generous, loving...need I go on? I truly never though a relationship could be like this. My observations of the adults around me led me to believe that it would be better to be alone than to muck through a relationship. My children are wondrous beings, beautiful, intuitive, creative, interesting, compassionate, loving, I often tell people they are the best project I have ever done, and I am not completely kidding, they really are! My house though small, is comfortable to live in and can be cleaned up rather quickly. There IS a cottage, if I choose to fall to action and spruce it up. I live in one of the most beautiful places in the world, and the neighborhood I live in smalls good and is full of bird choruses by day and frog choruses by night, Though sometimes there are owl concerts instead of frogs. I have good food, good fun, a good garden despite the fact I don't really do much to it. So I just want to say, life IS good.

Second, I forgot what I wanted to say second, so I will let this be the finale, I have checked in, no list, some things done, much contentment and satisfaction. Goodnight!

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